The reality is that my man is older than I am and is at the point in his life where he's ready to start settling down and thinking marriage. I on the other hand have yet to graduate college and start a career. I'm not sure I'm ready to make such a drastic commitment when I'm not even sure where I want to live and what I want to do. That said, I'm not ready to give up on the relationship either. I think I need some time to clear my head, get back to my roots a bit and enjoy being a care free 22 year old. 
I think floating on some silent water and enjoying cheap beer with beloved friends is just the way to do that. However, if any of you have advice, words of encouragement or personal experience to share, I would love to hear it.What I'm Listening To:
Fire Escape- Diane Birch
boats and a hot tub? i'd be there in a sec. i'm always wanting to organize friend trips to my parent's country and beach abodes, but it's hard to organize. hope you have better luck getting out there with friends for some breathing time. love can be confusing. but in a way you are kinda lucky to have this summer to yourself in ny to figure out if you're happy adventuring on your own without him. and i know what you mean about settling down vs feeling young and carefree. i guess in an ideal world we'd get to feel both at the same time.
ReplyDeleteIdeally yes, I just don't feel as if I'm in a place in my life where I can make promises like that yet. I'm cookie dough, I'm not done baking. Should anyone get that reference you are a) a huge dork, b) my new best friend. I am still trying to organize a trip but the getting there is tricky since none of us have a car. Who knows, hopefully it will work out, lord knows I could use it.
ReplyDelete*hug* This is rough, and I've been here before. Sadly, sometimes these become life decisions that are just incompatible, like wanting to travel and wanting to stay in one place. It's hard, especially when feelings are so involved. I wish i had more advice to give, but sometimes these are just decisions that the heart and head can't make together. xo
ReplyDeleteAt this point it sounds like you are doing everything right: you're not letting yourself get tied down to a big decision and you both are giving yourselves time alone to think. I hope it works out for you; regardless, it sounds as though you have an amazing couple of years ahead of you!
ReplyDeleteI'm originally from Ottawa and my family used to vacation in Lake George. Although I don't think this is too close to Ithaca, I can understand how you need to spend time at your lake house-- northern lakes are gorgeous.