Wilderness

Summer plans. There's this thing about New York, when it gets warm, we come alive. It's as if everyone's been hibernating and how we're all waking up, stretching out and seeing the sun and we're ready to take it all in. Your head fills with images of piers and beaches and brunches in the sun. You're all about ice cream and an open fire hydrant. You look longingly at shorts in displays and buy a new pair of sunglasses that make you look just like Sophia Loren! I love summer in New York.

But one of the best parts is getting out of New York! And that's why my girls and I are planning a trip to my parents lake house. A weekend trip for all of us at the end of the summer. And we are going all out! First we're borrowing a friends cousin's minivan so we can pack all 8 or so of us! We're also having a fundraiser to pay for the ever increasing price of gas! We're going to have a Williamsburg Lemonade Stand/Bake Sale/Kissing Booth! Hurray. Then we'll spend a few days sunning, playing in the water, hiking the gully, eating homemade food and drinking local wine and enjoying some quality girl time! Ahhh, this is the life...

Wilderness- Middle Brother

I Wanna Be Where Your Heart Is Home

As you all know I've moved to Brooklyn. I'm still living in Bed Stuy, but this time I've got a little 4th floor walk up near a park. It's a nice place, though it's not my dream place. The kitchen really leaves a lot to be desired. I seriously lack in cabinet and counter space. So I've been trying to remedy those issues with creative and colorful storage options.
These pictures are just dreamy and I love a colorful, quirky kitchen that's just filled with stuff to inspire me. I'm not one of those sleek, modern, kitchen kind of girls. Like with everything else, I like a little whimsy.

I Have Been an Absent Blogger

I'm sorry I haven't written guys. It's tough to keep motivated these days. I didn't get the job at Sony, as a result I did get to go to North Carolina's Outer Banks for a week with my best lady friend in the whole wide world. But I cannot lie, I really would have liked a job. I've been back from vaca for a little over a week and it seems there is another bump in my road. My temp job in the office where my dad works has evaporated. My boss, it seems, is on permanent vacation and therefore has left me with nothing to work on. So long income! So I spend my days sending out hundreds of resumes. Making mass quantities of follow up calls and going on daily crying jags.

Truth is, I'm lonely as hell out here. I don't know a soul in Ithaca and all my parents friends(and my parents) seem to ask about is my job hunt. The sad fact is, there's nothing to tell. I'm like the little engine who could, but I'm runnin' outta steam! I'm frustrated and I'm feeling pretty useless. I'm not even getting call backs. So sometimes I take the dogs hiking in the gully and I can escape for a little while. But I can't escape the ever growing isolation I feel. It's pretty much me and my TV. However, I can safely say I recommend Heroes the TV show, I can say this cause I've watched every single episode of all four seasons. Don't say I never achieved anything.

I am still dating that boy, I'm not where it's going, mostly cause I'm not sure where I'm going. But I like him, and it would be nice to have him be my in city gentleman friend rather than my travel to get smoochies friend. I've also got a wedding to go to this weekend with a friend of mine from NYC who's coming up to stay with me. I'm actually really looking forward to this, he's my french speaking ex but also one of my closest friends and I know that he gets where I'm coming from. Plus, it's an indian wedding, in other words, bright colors, lots of dancing and celebration. I think it's exactly what I need.

Heading Back

Packed by acelovesvintage featuring TopShop dresses

I'm heading back to NYC for the weekend either tonight or tomorrow. Still no word on the job but I remain hopeful. I'm not totally sure what my plans are for this weekend but I think the above packing list has them all covered. And yes, this is more or less exactly what I'm packing though I'll admit that the jewelry is all wish list items. My dress for fourth of july is a sailor dress like that one but it's red polka dotted vintage betsy johnson and is my absolute favourite. The rest however is pretty much acurate. Hope everyone has a great holiday weekend!!

What I'm Listening To:

New York, New York- Ryan Adams

^always makes me think of the fourth of july

Curiouser and Curiouser

Unbirthday Party by acelovesvintage featuring Vivienne Westwood shoes

A happy unbirthday to me!!

I have decided that I deserve a party. An unbirthday party. When I get a job and my darling best friend and I find an apartment and move to new york I am throwing us a house warming unbirthday party. I'm talking tea cups and tiny cakes and silly costumes and other such nonsense. There would of course be a heart shaped red velvet cake(yum, my fav) and me in black and red cause after all, I'm the queen of hearts. Just like the picture, and how great is that jewlery???I would really love to have a little top hat on a headband like I've seen out there. You are, of course, all invited. I'm a fan of theme parties, are you? Know any good themes?

P.S. I think this dress would be swell!

Frivolity

This is a post about the frivolous things. As I believe I have made clear I am bound and determined to get back to NYC(and when I get there my fellow NYC bloggers will be bound and determined to come get a celebratory drink with me). I am in the mean time biding my time with an office job and a long list of resumes but I can't help but dream about my fancy life in NYC. Now, I know I will be broke, but that doesn't mean I can't be fabulous. So this is a post about all the extras, the etc.'s the little bits more. The things that we don't really neeeeeed per say. Sure, without them the earth will continue to turn, the sun will shine and the stars will sparkle but would it turn, shine and sparkle just a little bit more with them?

Frivolity by acelovesvintage featuring Forever21 dresses

Frilly tap pants and turquoise hot pants, why? I don't know, because.

Charming mustard yellow shorts that are just a bit too twee.

Tortoise shell cat eye sunglasses, I'm indulging my inner screen siren.

A black leather hoodie to indulge my inner bad ass.

Lacy black lingerie, to indulge my inner vixen.

Heart shaped sunglasses, these are actually a must for me, I own several frivolous pairs.

Beautiful dresses, one that's all too sweet, one that's so exotic and one that lets me sparkle.

Red ballet flats with a lightening bolt to indulge my inner super hero(excellent for interviews when you need a little oomph).

Drop dead have to have it gorgeous jewelry to indulge my inner queen.

Red heels with a sweet little bow, 2 parts sweet, one part saucy.

The Prodigal Daughter Returns

It's been a long absence and I apologize. I have been rigorously searching for a job in NYC and settling in to my parents lake house. Well the kitties and I are settled, more or less. Granted our stuff is strewn about the upstairs of the cabin, but we're making due.

I've got a working car, home cooked meals every night and the accompanying elliptical necessitated by said meals. Sadly, no "grown up" job yet. But I had an interview at Sony not too long ago and I've got a second one in about 2 weeks, keep your fingers crossed for me.

In the meantime I'm temping at my dad's office and continuing to send out resumes. I'm hoping to start volunteering at a local animal shelter as well and I'm looking into taking a dance class. I'm also looking into working part time or interning at a local radio station to pad my resume while I keep looking for work in NYC.

In other(good) news my best friend may in fact be coming with me to Brooklyn. We're both applying for work, her in restaurant PR and me in music and crossing our fingers. We're also having visions of a cute prewar apartment hopefully with a yard and a whole bunch of second hand furniture as well as my two kitties plus her dog and kitty. My what a family!

I am also beginning to think abotu having a new dog in my life. Losing my little bear was really really difficult and I'm far from over it but I'm also feeilng very lonely and purposeless without a dog in my life. As it turns out a friend of my mom's has a little dog that she needs to find a new home for named Coco. I'm thinking about fostering him for awhile, maybe he's not for me, but either way it would be nice to help.

Anyways, I'm also doing this thing, I believe it's called dating. Since B and I broke up I haven't really dated anyone seriously. I dated my ex boss, kind of, but it was never anything serious. The closest I got to something real was dating a friend of mine who as it turned out was not much of a friend afterall. So now I am cautiously dipping a toe in the dating pool. That is to say, I am not dating anyone. But I'm open to it, I'm just not seeking it out so much. That said the thought of dated outfits does get me all a twitter...

Nerd by acelovesvintage featuring TopShop bags

Bustier Jumper
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Chelsea Crew Perforated Oxford
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Small Pushlock Satchel Bag
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Alkemie + Cupid's Arrow Bangle
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Barrie round-frame acetate glasses
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Belfry Smith - Panama Straw Fedora: Hatsinthebelfry.com
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I'm Not Dead Yet!

OK guys, I'm not dead. I've morned. I've learned. I've graduated. And now I'm moving on. I'm packed up, I've got interviews in NYC and while a veritable TON of shit has happened in the past month(which I promise to full you in on) I'm ready to move it on along. Bare with me while I am more or less internet-less till I get all settled but I promise there will be stories, news and pictures galore.

Currently Listening To:

She and Him: Volume Two

Revealing Truths

I thought I would do something a little random and share some truths with you. Not all are flattering, some are silly. But I figured I would let you guys get to know me a little bit. What are your truths?

1) My dresses, especially in summer, are always way too short. But I love them and wear them anyway and just excuse it with the fact that I too am short. Don't worry though, I wear panties.

2)My favourite sandwich is cream cheese and green olives. My mom thinks I'm weird.

3) I am terrified of people in big costumes where I can't see their faces, like at Disney. But I still love Disney World.

4) I have a thing for Bruce Willis, it may even beat out my thing for Johnny Depp.

5) In high school I was a cheerleader and a rebel, my roommate thinks I was Peyton Sawyer from One Tree Hill.

6) I'm pale, sometimes I fake tan, but m

ostly I'm too lazy.

7) My favourite scents are grapefruit, hon

eysuckle and daisies and I mix perfumes t

o make my own.

8) I eat crackers in bed.

9) I LOVE Britney Spears despite working exclusively in indie music.

10) I've been the other woman, several times, I don't always feel bad about it but I think I should.

Vacation All I Ever Wanted

I have returned from vacation to a slightly sunnier Boston. Let's hope this keeps up, more posts soon!!

What I'm Listening To:

Set Fire to the Third Bar- Snow Patrol and Martha Wainwright

In Honor of Alice in Wonderland

Through the looking glass...
Eat me...

Wear me...

Drink me...

Life at Warp Speed

Wooo, life is moving awful quick these days. Sleep isn't happening an awful lot and I'll admit, I'm still being a bit of a slacker in school but I'm getting through it. My social life is a bit wild, a late night dance party with a DJ friend here, foreign movie and wine night at a friends house there, my very first comedy show, a friends band in town, a trip, vacation, good lord! My mornings are beginning to look a bit like the above picture. I'll admit, I'm having trouble keeping up, but gosh it's just so fun.

What I'm Listening To-

Times Square- Sarah Siskind

School Is...

Owning my life, back soon I promise!

I Don't Know What to Write

If it wasn't patently obvious, I am suffering from a bit of bloggers block. I've simply got no clue what to write about. I'm a bit down cause it's winter and my feet are in a state of permanent hypothermia, I'm a touch down cause I've got no one around to warm them and I'm a bit stressed by my impending graduation and my swan dive into the "real world". All this combined leaves little room in my head to think about what to blog. So here's my question to you guys, what would you like to see? As far as stuff I'm already doing, anything you want to see more of? Or less of for that matter? And anything else you feel like would be good for my blog or that you would like to see. Let me know, a few fresh ideas would do my exhausted mind good.

Summer Girl

I'm dreaming of cool summer nights, of sun kissed blonde hair in sea salt coils. I'm dreaming of flimsy dresses and sun hats, of drinks out of mason jars and fireflies. I'm beginning to dream of summer. Everyone has a season, and though I appreciate them all, I am a summer girl. It just so happens that fall is my favourite season(I just really love cider and a cute jacket). But summer is when I'm at my best, I'm happiest. The picture above reminds me of camping on the beach down in North Carolina, though we never could get our fires this big.

So what is your season? And why?

Chasing Chaos

I've talked about it before but it bears repeating. One of the many things I learned from my charming artist roommates is an appreciation of a little chaos. Chaos is passion, it's whimsy, it's spontaneity. Without chaos, you can't have any of those wonderful things. That said, my life is a bit chaotic. I'm once again searching for a roommate, the aforementioned person who decided the speak to my ex behind my back just happened to be my new roommate. I'm not sure what her issue was, let alone her issue with me, but suffice to say she was unstable and mercifully has moved out. Though, she did leave us in a lurch with bills and a complete lack of roommate. Thankfully my other roommate is lovely and has worked out just fine. All the same, my life is bit chaotic. But then I think to myself if my life were easy it just wouldn't be the same. My moments of up and down give shape to my life, give words to my music. The picture above is chaotic, and absolutely gorgeous, the people I love are chaotic and wonderful, chaos it seems is an essential part of my life. And though I've tried to fight it it keeps coming back. So, I've accepted chaos in my house, in my music, in my wardrobe and in my love life, I think it's time I accept that chaos is here to stay and finally make peace with it, or even learn to enjoy it.

On a side note, I dream of a living room like this.

This is My New Year

Last year was both tough and wonderful. I'm hoping this year to have a few less trials and tribulations(despite the stress of graduating and job hunting) and enjoy life to the fullest. It's not a very solid or readily achievable resolution but it works for me. What are yours?

Happy New Years

Have an awesome night everyone, we'll chat next year!

The Flower of Death

Trusting people isn't easy. It's harder when they give you every reason not to trust them. In spite of this I give people the benefit of the doubt, not always to good ends. This is one of those occasions. Awhile ago I wrote about a certain someone who read my blog and relayed the information in it to my ex. I wasn't sure who it was, until now. I have discovered it is someone quite close to me, not emotionally so much as physically. I don't know why this person chose to do this, save for the fact that she dislikes me. But it is cruel and uncalled for, and now that I know I am taking every measure to remove this person from my life. As I've said before, my ex has substance abuse issues and the information that I was dating someone else was traumatic for him and his reaction was traumatic for me. As far as I'm concerned the actions taken by this reader, who also snooped uninvited through my computer to find this blog, were malicious and intentionally harmful to myself and others. To those of you who have been kind and supportive readers, I appreciate you even more now and I hope that your holidays are wonderful and that you're surrounded by people who you love and love you. As for that certain reader, rest assured that I know, and while I am not vindictive like you, I am not the type of person to take things laying down.

Girl Crush

I've got a girl crush. This, if you don't already know, is Willa Holland. She was in The OC at one point and though I don't watch it was apparently in Gossip Girl.
I think she's fascinating.
Obviously she's gorgeous, she's got lovely eyes and that fascinatingly full top lip. She's also go that pretty long, brown, shiny, straight hair.
But what I really like is her high school bad girl appeal. Weird, I know.
But this chick just seems fun, she seems like the kind of girl I would've wanted to hang out with in high school, also the kind of girl my mom would have said hell no you can't hang out with her to. Thus solidifying her appeal
So maybe it's my inner high school rebel that loves this girl and her smudgy eye liner and penchant for cigarettes and compromising photographs but I just can't seem to get enough. Like I said, I've got a girl crush.